I did not binge today

Today I am grateful that I did not have to get up early but I did anyway
enjoying the peacefulness of the early morning, listening to birds, Tom snoring, watching Diva clean herself (what is it with cats anyway?), reading emails.
long, hot baths with a good book.
not having to go to work today.
I did not binge today.
realizing that the space I am in my head is not reality and it will pass…i.e. feeling that I have no friends and that people don’t really like being around me…this is all shame stuff from when I was little and it has decided to rear its ugly head again…
knowing that I haven’t done everything I can to get out of this funk…actually, I have been wallowing a bit…I haven’t shared it with this community, haven’t been praying, etc
trying to love my body even though I feel fat and pale and all my deformities are glaring at me in the mirror…