My colleagues all agree on the shortcomings of our boss, saying it cannot go on and her treachery will surely bring about her downfall. I indulge in negativity about how tedious our work has become and how useless to our customers in the new regime. I can’t seem to let it go and let go of my need to find satisfaction in my work. Away from work, I think I’ve overcome the bitter frustration, but it comes right back in the right company and I find myself tearing down my fear-driven boss who lacks self-confidence and respect for the people who work for her. I behave in a way that I’m not proud of, feeling self-righteous and hopeful that the bad karma she puts out will boomerang back to her. It doesn’t feel good and I think about myself. What kind of karma am I putting out? Just because my colleagues all suffer her oppressive, fear-mongering management doesn’t mean I need to stoke the fires there. I can use the opportunity to practice letting go of things not my control and pass. Obviously, I need to work on that area. I clearly am not as self-aware as I think I am. I’ve come so far, but I have so far to go!
My thoughts determine my happiness
