by supportadmin_418 | Mar 11, 2019 | Recognizing Growth
If I think back about the things I worried about last year, last month or whenever in the past, I realize that things always work out. Then I can have faith and trust that everything will work out even if I just do not see how. Why is it so difficult to trust that all will be well when I know from experience that what I am so upset about today, I won’t even remember after a time?
Did I mention fear and faith? Man, fear is such a huge thing in my life right now. All I can do is have faith and not be fearful…have faith and do not fear the future…I have faith and I am not afraid. That’s what I keep telling myself. Some days I believe it, some days not so much. I have to say, I stay longer in the comfort of faith that all is well and all will be well than I used to. I need to celebrate progress, not beat on myself for slipping back into old patterns.
by supportadmin_418 | Mar 11, 2019 | Acceptance
I noticed this morning as I admonished myself for forgetting to refill the bottle of conditioner in my gym bag, how quickly my self-flagellation snowballs when given the slightest entrée. As if the lack of conditioner was of monumental consequence, I tasted the self-loathing in my mouth. I can’t do anything right was the thought two back, waiting to push its way into the forefront of my mind. As I write this, I see this scenario is hardly believable to someone outside my head, but it is actually how it went for me this morning. I was able to see, though, how insidious my internal judger is and how unfair and hateful I am to myself. I don’t usually notice this and change my thoughts to more self-compassionate ones. Today I did and made a little progress on changing the ingrained behavior that keeps me from the sunlight of the spirit. This writing exercise helps a good bit.
by supportadmin_418 | Mar 11, 2019 | The Daily Compliment
I ended a response to a friend I have known a few years, but not with “I hope you never lose your effervescence, your joy always makes me smile.” It didn’t flow with the rest of the message, but I always smile when thinking of her and today I let her know that.
by supportadmin_418 | Mar 11, 2019 | Sharing Joy
Little delights are easy and free. I love words and not infrequently I hear a deliciously fun word used, one I haven’t heard in a long time or an old phrase that just fits the situation showers me with pleasure. This evening a friend regaled me with his internal reactions to an annoying colleague’s behavior. Her sarcasm did seem edgy rather than funny as he described it. My friend shrugged his shoulders having succeeded in passing along the distaste of her to me. He added that he wouldn’t stand for anyone else besmirching her character. She may be tricky to engage with, but she’s a brilliant designer. Isn’t besmirch a wonderful word? That’s today’s fun word. See if you can find a way to use it. It’ll give a wordie pleasure!
by supportadmin_418 | Mar 11, 2019 | The Daily Compliment
This morning, a young woman I see most Thursday mornings when we both dress at the gym’s mirror told me that this was her last Thursday. She resigned from her job a couple of months before her graduate school classes will begin and she is going to visit friends in New Jersey, where she grew up, and spend a couple of weeks in Ireland. The first week in Ireland, her dad will be with her. He enjoys the cosmopolitan sights as well as the countryside. The second week her sister will join her. Her sister could happily live her whole life without ever going to a city. After we’d chatted about her plans and such, she stopped what she was doing suddenly and looked at me in the mirror. “I’m so glad you were here today. I didn’t want to miss the opportunity to tell you how much I look forward to seeing you on Thursday mornings. You give me such a lift.” I was stunned. She is young enough to be my daughter and I am flattered that she would find me enjoyable, old woman that I am. Her words put wings on my feet all day today and made me want to do that for someone else. That’s how putting goodness into the world works, I think.
